If you were ever an avid reader of my blogs on my short lived myspace, yes, I had a small midlife technology crisis, you probably read my insert on Someday....... It of course listed things that I would someday accomplish or things that I already realize and will one day accept. One of the things on my "Someday list" was that I would go back to graduate school and complete a Master's in mathematics. Following that was the statement that Someday...I would realize that was a thing of the past.
It's really funny how things tend to happen at just the right time. These past few weeks it has been all I can do to stay in the same room with my ever-seeming mathematically ignorant students. Now, don't get me wrong. Some of my students are extremely intelligent, and it's not the lack of knowledge of the students that seems to get to me. It's simply the fact that somewhere in my mind I believe I should be doing more advanced mathematics than what it requires to teach precal or calculus. These are the thoughts that have been running through my poor, poor mind A LOT lately. Then it happened. I had an ex-student, who is currently an engineering major at A&M - College Station, need a little tutoring while he was home. So, here I am, all of the mind set that teaching is not for me. I need to be doing REAL mathematics...... and then real mathematics comes knocking at my door. And I begin to realize that my life as a teacher of "unreal" mathematics, just might not be that bad!
I seem to forget how much I have forgotten. I simply do not have the time to dive into deep study of mathematics, and more importantly I just don't seem to want to have to study that hard anymore. I would miss too much. Too many things that I really want to see. So maybe being a teacher without her high and mighty master's degree isn't such a bad thing. I have a degree; I have a career. Why do I feel the need to go back to that part of my life and only complicate the good things I have now. Unfortunately it is very hard for me to let go of things of the past, and I believe that is where my need for the master's degree is coming from.
If you are still reading.........thank you. I don't blame you if you quit a long time ago! This blog was more for my own venting, rather than relevant information. I'll try to update with pics of the kids and the dayschool egg hunt in a couple of days. Hope everyone has a great weekend!
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